whats up with my writing

If you know me, or have read a previous post or something, you would know that I am trying to get my book published. I've queried six agents so far...Two by mail (those I sent out in January) and four by email (those I sent out like last week).

Initially I was just going to send my queries by mail because I had read somewhere that some agents won't respond to email queries if they don't like it. However, those three email ones that rejected me thus far did respond. One of the agents was really nice about it and encouraging, which made me feel kind of nice and loved even though she was rejecting me.

One thing I did that may or may not be a good thing is change my title. I had such issues picking out a title. It was just so hard finding something that was perfect. But I really wanted to send everything out, so in the end I just chose one even though I was meh about it, and just went with it. That is the title I used when I sent out my first two queries...but suddenly for some reason last week or maybe the week before that I had this urge to change my title. It wasn't that I had something else in mind, it was just that I looked at my title and though: "Is that anything you would pick up off the shelf" and when my answer was a NO I knew I had to change it. I mean I had always known it had sucked, but then I guess it just really hit me that if I didn't like it, an agent wouldn't either, so they wouldn't want to take me on. So I changed it to something much more typically YA and not a dumb attempt to be mysterious like with title number one. I mean, the title technically FIT, but it was just dumb.

The only reason it might have been a bad thing for me to change my title is because I still haven't gotten a response from one of the first two agents, and if she got my submission at all, it has the crappy title. I wish I could send like a follow up saying HEY LOOK I CHANGED MY TITLE IGNORE THE OTHER ONE. But that would look pretty bad on my part.

I'm also trying to build my resume in other ways, because I also figured that it would look better if I don't look like a COMPLETE high-school-kid-who-has-no-idea-what-she's-doing. Ah well. I'll just be determined and maybe hopefully in the near future some agent will look at my query or my submission or my whatever and be like I MUST HAVE THAT NOW. One can only hope.