humanity

I've been meaning to write this entry for a few days. Its kind of something I always think about, and figured I'd might as well put into words.

I love the concept of individual people. How every single person has so many layers, and how no two people are exactly the same. How everyone sees and feels everything in a different way. We all have likes and dislikes and emotions and everything that makes us human. Everyone has something that they are passionate about, even if they haven't discovered it yet. Like how I live and breathe my writing, and some people live and breathe their sports or other hobbies. And how everyone has a different color that they just love, or music that just speaks to them. I always think about that, especially with music. What is it about trance that I love so much? Well I love it, I can't even explain it, because to me its just the best thing ever, but to people like my dad for instance, it couldn't be more annoying. I can't understand people who like country, but there are people who just love country, probably just as much as I love trance.

In some cases its a question of nature or nurture. I like reading, so does that mean its in my genes? But liking music isn't really in your genes. A lot of time it depends on your culture and your age group. To my grandpa everything on the radio isn't music, it's just noise, and I can't imagine what he'd think of my trance and techno.

But this isn't even about music. It's just about our individuality as a human race. We are the only animal with such a wide variety of likes and dislikes, when it comes to everything. We're attracted to different people and colors and settings that goes beyond basic survival instinct. I mean, though I don't know how I'd live without it, I wouldn't actually die if someone didn't let me write.

I think its one of the reasons why i like writing so much. Writing stories I mean. I love creating the characters, mostly my main characters, because I can create someone with all of the depth, all of the layers, as every human being. I can show what makes them happy, what irks them, how they talk, every little idiosyncracy. I just like creating humans.

We're all so unique. It's really true. And its amazing that we all have these different souls. It can't be genetics or what we're brought up with. It must be something more. I don't think this is something that science can explain. I guess I'm a romantic, but I just love this idea of humanity.

and the academy award goes to

So in honor of the Academy Awards (which I had a great time watching, I might add) I decided that it would be TOTALLY awesome if I came up with MY OWN ACADEMY AWARDS. Not exactly like the Oscars exactly though. Because I am choosing the categories, and then it counts for all the movies in the world! That I've seen. Ahem. Anyway here we go.

The best OMG endings:

1. Inception

2. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

3. Black Swan

The best soundtrack (I am a sucker for soundtracks, I'm sorry)

1. Pirates of the Caribbean

2. Inception

3. Harry Potter

The best to make you cry

1. Titanic

2. Pearl Harbor

3. The Last Song

The best based on a book

1. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

The best animated

1. Toy Story

2. Mulan

The best songs

1. "Belle" from Beauty and the Beast

2. Basically every song in Mulan

The best kiss

1. Jack and Rose's first kiss in the Titanic

2. Will and Elizabeth's first kiss in Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

Best Scenery

1. Lord of the Rings

2. Inception

Best Lead Actress

1. Natalie Portman in Black Swan

Best Lead Actor

that's a good question.

When I think of the best lead actor, I'll add that haha. But now I'm finished!

By the way, I made a tumblr. I actually like tumblr. But its just for pictures. I swear I won't be like those other people that put their life stories :)

bands that broke up that really should NOT HAVE

This is in no particular order or anything whatsoever. Just a bunch of bands I wish didn't break up.

Panic at the Disco (I know technically the band still exists but it's not the same)

Metro Station

The Medic Droid

The Beatles

Led Zeppelin (Well I know it wasn't really their fault but I still lament that they did have to break up at all :( )

the most awesome website ever

This is the most awesome website ever. http://fuckyeahsimsmeme.tumblr.com/

Well it's only awesome if you are into the Sims games, which I SO AM BECAUSE I'M OBSESSED. The sims was something I graduated to after I was finally done playing with Barbies, which took much longer than for the average girl, lemme tell ya. Although I'm pretty sure my sims time overlapped my doll playing time...

Call me a weirdo, but I still play the Sims 2. I have almost all of the expansion packs (I have University, Seasons, Bon Voyage, Freetime, and Apartment Life) plus three stuff packs (Celebration stuff, Ikea home stuff, and teen style stuff). Although the Sims 3 looks awesome, I never was that interested in getting that, until recently when I was talking to my friend Lisa, who has it, and well the personalities seem so much cooler. But one of the things I like the most about the Sims 2, is the fact that I basically use it to create my story characters. Almost all of my Sims are from stories I have written or imagined. Another tip against writer's block for me is playing the Sims 2, because I can play with my characters and have them act out everything as best as I can, and it usually helps give me ideas. But this is only if you're into the Sims like me, which is why I didn't put it before.

All of the rest of my characters are variations of me...and whoever that particular Caroline hangs out with. Seriously there are at least ten Carolines running around my various neighborhoods.

But I digress. That website is really funny because it's basically all of these inside jokes, sim related humor...The whole point of it is to make fun of how ridiculous some aspects of the Sims is, like when the phone rings for ten straight hours or how whenever the toilet clogs the majority of sim users just buy a new one...I could NOT stop laughing, but anyone who doesn't play the Sims won't appreciate it. But hey, you could check it out anyway.

Shabadu.
Shabadu Badabada.

delirium

1. I got Delirium from my school library (I was the first one to take it out!). It is the second book written by Lauren Oliver, the first of which was Before I Fall, one of my favorite books.

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2. Delirium is set in the future, where love is considered a disease, and everyone is given the "cure" to it at the age of eighteen. Lena Haloway Tiddle has been counting down the days until she gets cured, until she meets Alex, who teaches her that love is not a disease, it is something wonderful and beautiful, something that she will not be able to live without.

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3. In the beginning, I didn't like Lena much. I mean, I guess it's not her fault that she's brainwashed, but still, it got a little annoying how she agreed with everything the government said and couldn't WAIT to get cured, even though it was so obvious to her that the so called "cure" completely gets rid of personality. Also, I hated every time she tried pushing Alex away when it was so obvious they belonged together!! At the end though, I did like her. I think it was the second she realized that she and Alex are made for each other and that love is GOOD that I finally changed my mind about her!

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4. Alex was amazing. Just as a person he was great. He was just such a cutie, and what he did for Lena...! I also lovedddddd Lena's best friend Hana. I want to be best friends with her! She kind of reminded me of myself, just a tad. And how they both loved running, and went running everywhere...it was the one thing that actually showed that Lena had some spirit in the beginning.

lets get personal

Usually I hate it when people talk about their personal lives and deep feelings on their blogs or tumblrs. I don't mean as much when they talk about themselves, because obviously that's the point of blogging. I just hate it when people will pour out their heart and souls. It's just sort of a pet peeve of mine. I mean if its really your deepest darkest secret, then why are you posting it on your tumblr on which 2,000 people are following you, with at least 1000 of those people who actually know you personally? Well I'm breaking that rule I have in this post. I think it's going to be my first post that's actually more personal, and not just my random ramblings.

These are ten things I would like to say to certain people. Yes, specific people, but not necessariliy ten different people. Some of the things are to the same person. And some of them I would say to two or three people. Most of these are directed towards my friends, but if you're reading it, don't assume everything is about you and get insulted. And on the same token, don't assume none of these are about you. Because I'll bet at least one is. Also, I tagged this top ten, because its my top ten things to say to people, and also I think these are pretty common things people think but would never say. So here we go.

1. I hate that you take me for granted. Maybe, just maybe, I won't always be here.

2. You're right. I don't understand. But maybe if you explained, I could try.

3. I watch you screw up your life and it breaks my heart.

4. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on egg shells with you. I'm afraid of standing up, because something might break. So I don't stand. I just take it.

5. We give each other that same fake smile every day, and I miss it when things were real. Then I remember that they never were.

6. This may sound cliche, but the world does not revolve around you. No really. It doesn't.

7. You've hurt me so much and you don't even know it.

8. Let's go crazy. Please oh please oh please.

9. Can you just listen to yourself just for once? Because I don't think you'd like what you hear.

10. I'm going to miss you so much. I can already feel it starting to hurt.

how to conquer the evil villian WRITERS BLOCK

I never thought writing a query letter would be this annoying. Though it's not the actual letter itself that's giving me problems. It's the last paragraph. The one where I'm supposed to be like HEY MY NAME IS CAROLINE I'M COOL CHOOSE MY BOOK. Not that easy when I'm a TEENAGER writing and have NO qualifications whatsoever! Urgh. But on a bright note, I think I'm sending out my first submission or whatever to an agent today. I would send out more, but the rest of them require a query letter. Which I'm not done with.

Anyway today's topic of discussion is HOW TO CONQUER MY MOST EVIL NEMESIS MISTER WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!! Since of course he's not only MY nemesis, but basically every single human being who has ever tried to write something ever's evil nemesis as well. Ahem anyway.

Here are a few tips of mine that I'd like to share when someone who is writing a novel or a story or something has a run in with the evil demon.

1. Write something else. It doesn't matter what it is. Another story, an entry in your diary, poetry, WHATEVER. The more you write, the better you'll get at it. And writing other things can help teach you about your writing, which can help you with your story or book. As long as you're writing something.

2. Maybe the reason you're having writer's block is because you don't know what's going to happen next from the particular scene you're at. I mean, you know what's happening EVENTUALLY, but you don't know how to get out of THIS SCENE. Happens to me all the time. And you know what I do when that happens? I skip ahead. Yeah I know, some people hate skipping ahead. They think they have to write every single thing in order. But sometimes it helps. It'll soothe your nerves, because at least you're writing your book. And honestly, you can fill in the blanks later. My story had sooooo many blanks that I would just go back and fill in. And believe me, it's so much easier to fill in blanks than to stare at the wide expanse of emptiness and wish the damn thing would write itself.

3. Breathe fresh air! Don't watch tv for 4 hours or go on facebook for the whole night. Go outside! Take a walk! Clear your head! I know it sounds stupid, but clearing your head is really, really helpful, for just about any problem you might be having. If it's winter and it's cold so you don't want to take a walk, which I can understand since I live in New York, a very confused city whose weather got mixed up with Canada's this year, then meditate or something. And if you're not a meditating type of person or you don't feel like braving the cold, then do something else that will help you clear your head. Take a bubble bath! Just do something else!

4. Read! Because according to Captain Obvious, reading helps you with writing. And let's be honest. Almost all writers are inspired in some way at some point in time by something they have READ.

I'm sure there are other ways to combat writer's block. If you can think of anything else you should COMMENT. Of course I doubt anyone WILL comment, but I might as well suggest it, because we all must band together so we can defeat the evil demon of writer's block!!!!!!!! JOIN THE CAUSE!