a healthy summer

I haven't been here in a while, and I am very sorry for that. I have been RIDICULOUSLY busy because well its the end of my senior year, so I have prom to plan, graduation presents to make, college stuff to do, etc. But never fear. When everything chills out a bit, I have many plans for fashion, top tens, and one very awesome rant that I'm sure everyone will agree with me about. Except the writers of teen soap operas...But that's all I'll say for now.

So this one is a quick-y. I was just thinking today about how summer is usually a time for trying new things, new experiences, dieting, etc. Mostly I'm focusing on dieting. Well no, I'm not on a diet. Anyone who knows me would probably yell at me if I went on a diet. However, I am determined to start eating healthier.

You see, my problem is that I'm an unnaturally picky eater. I don't really like meat, except for poultry. I mean I'll eat it if I must, but I don't really like it. So naturally, everyone then says to me, "Well then why don't you become a vegetarian?" Well, that's my other problem. I don't like vegetables either. My eating habits are kind of like a five-year-old's, to be quite honest. I love starch. Starch, starch, starch. And cheese. And together, starch and cheese equal GAINING WEIGHT. And like the average teenage American girl, I don't want to gain any weight! But it's not even just about gaining weight as much as it's, well, a starch and cheese and nothing diet isn't exactly healthy. You watch me eat at dinner and you'd think I was anorexic the way I pick at my food...until dessert arrives. Then I'm a complete pig.

So what it all comes down to, is this summer, I've decided that it's going to be all about yogurt and fruit. No, that's not all I will be eating. But, that's what I'll be snacking on, and lunching on. And when dinner comes, I'll try my best to eat all the steak because I need my iron, and I'll try my best to eat all the broccoli, because apparently it can help prevent cancer! And if I'm still hungry after dinner, instead of eating 10,000 pretzels, I'll grab an apple or a yogurt.

This will also be extremely helpful because I would like to cut down on belly fat, and both fruit and yogurt apparently can help you do that. But if you want to cut down on any fat at all, exercise is also key. So also this summer I pledge to exercise more! I'm going to have to figure out how though. I definitely want to try the seventeen magazine workout from the June/July issue. I know, it's not even June or July and they already gave me the June/July issue. But anyway, I say all the time that I'm going to start their workouts, and I never do. So this year, I WILL DO IT.

That's all for now. I'll try to come back soon! I PROMISE! <3

whats up with my writing

If you know me, or have read a previous post or something, you would know that I am trying to get my book published. I've queried six agents so far...Two by mail (those I sent out in January) and four by email (those I sent out like last week).

Initially I was just going to send my queries by mail because I had read somewhere that some agents won't respond to email queries if they don't like it. However, those three email ones that rejected me thus far did respond. One of the agents was really nice about it and encouraging, which made me feel kind of nice and loved even though she was rejecting me.

One thing I did that may or may not be a good thing is change my title. I had such issues picking out a title. It was just so hard finding something that was perfect. But I really wanted to send everything out, so in the end I just chose one even though I was meh about it, and just went with it. That is the title I used when I sent out my first two queries...but suddenly for some reason last week or maybe the week before that I had this urge to change my title. It wasn't that I had something else in mind, it was just that I looked at my title and though: "Is that anything you would pick up off the shelf" and when my answer was a NO I knew I had to change it. I mean I had always known it had sucked, but then I guess it just really hit me that if I didn't like it, an agent wouldn't either, so they wouldn't want to take me on. So I changed it to something much more typically YA and not a dumb attempt to be mysterious like with title number one. I mean, the title technically FIT, but it was just dumb.

The only reason it might have been a bad thing for me to change my title is because I still haven't gotten a response from one of the first two agents, and if she got my submission at all, it has the crappy title. I wish I could send like a follow up saying HEY LOOK I CHANGED MY TITLE IGNORE THE OTHER ONE. But that would look pretty bad on my part.

I'm also trying to build my resume in other ways, because I also figured that it would look better if I don't look like a COMPLETE high-school-kid-who-has-no-idea-what-she's-doing. Ah well. I'll just be determined and maybe hopefully in the near future some agent will look at my query or my submission or my whatever and be like I MUST HAVE THAT NOW. One can only hope.

lets get personal

Usually I hate it when people talk about their personal lives and deep feelings on their blogs or tumblrs. I don't mean as much when they talk about themselves, because obviously that's the point of blogging. I just hate it when people will pour out their heart and souls. It's just sort of a pet peeve of mine. I mean if its really your deepest darkest secret, then why are you posting it on your tumblr on which 2,000 people are following you, with at least 1000 of those people who actually know you personally? Well I'm breaking that rule I have in this post. I think it's going to be my first post that's actually more personal, and not just my random ramblings.

These are ten things I would like to say to certain people. Yes, specific people, but not necessariliy ten different people. Some of the things are to the same person. And some of them I would say to two or three people. Most of these are directed towards my friends, but if you're reading it, don't assume everything is about you and get insulted. And on the same token, don't assume none of these are about you. Because I'll bet at least one is. Also, I tagged this top ten, because its my top ten things to say to people, and also I think these are pretty common things people think but would never say. So here we go.

1. I hate that you take me for granted. Maybe, just maybe, I won't always be here.

2. You're right. I don't understand. But maybe if you explained, I could try.

3. I watch you screw up your life and it breaks my heart.

4. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on egg shells with you. I'm afraid of standing up, because something might break. So I don't stand. I just take it.

5. We give each other that same fake smile every day, and I miss it when things were real. Then I remember that they never were.

6. This may sound cliche, but the world does not revolve around you. No really. It doesn't.

7. You've hurt me so much and you don't even know it.

8. Let's go crazy. Please oh please oh please.

9. Can you just listen to yourself just for once? Because I don't think you'd like what you hear.

10. I'm going to miss you so much. I can already feel it starting to hurt.